Fourth Fourth Fourth Fourth Fourth

Fourthhhhh :(
Its deeee-eeepressing. I got fourth for shot ( put ) . what the hell happened to my 9.89m?
I knew i couldn't reach it but still , fourth is depressing.
and the fact that on the first three throws i was doing okay ,
until Mr Tan and Ms chan started to pressurise me .
they kept going like , oh i'll give you anything you want if you win. blah blah.
Then it got me all scared so i screwed up :( life sucks. All my mediation went to waste. HAHA.
at least theres still next year , next year is double Goal for SN , idc. Next year is our year :) lol.
and i NEEEEED to get my gold back next year, i loath training and this is what i get ? Gah.
Totally unfair !!!! :(
But God has a plan ! hahaaha:) For Gracia and Me :) YAYGAY.
and G , hope you dont pull yourself down about this , you did well today:)
and next year we'll do even better ! Im soooo proud of you already for making it this far. CHEERUP!
& my parents are mento , I tell them i got a pathetic fourth and cause they dont know if thats good or not, they just go , " oh , so are you okay with that ? " in a really scared sorta voice.
but thankeww mommy for sending me to that DAMN FAR away stadium this morning .
& we got to miss the second half of schooool ! yay.
Anyway, all the way SN ! we have about another week and a half to go.
tomorow is another day :) and i still have stupid discus on finale day :(
PLEASE LET ME DO WELL ;(

Anyhooo, go SN . WE CAN DO IT.
hell to the yeah.