When will i truly be loved by you ?

You said today was " you&me today "
just both of us spending time together .
we said we'd watch a movie together
and you actually seemed excited
but then you just forget ,
instead you walked out to meet your friends
and left me alone home .

you said i was a " selfish bastard "
you said i didnt give a shit .
well how bout you ? you leave me at home every night .
while you're out there having fun .
you ask me to come home early so that i can spend some time with you
you end up going out when i reach home .

half the things i say to you ,
you either dont care or dont listen .
but when your problems come , i have to be there .
listening to your every word .
what pisses me off is that you expect yourself to come first
when i come last .
you dont even know what class im in .
you dont even care how im doing .

you wanna change becas you lost
but now you're just acting crazy .
You wana prove to everyone that you're better now
but then you're just delusional .

you dont know what i've been through
you dont even want to ask
you tell me " i love you "
what am i suppose to do with that ?
all you do is make me feel worse , & thinking that you dont care .
why dont you just kill me now . ?
save yourself the trouble .

when will i ever be truly loved ?
by someone as ignorant as you .

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